As the title suggests, this will be a confession along with trying to understand something that is unknown to me. So I believe, here goes nothing.

A week to two weeks ago, I found myself crushing on someone, crushing on them hard in fact, I really wanted to get to know this person, and I set out to do just that.
I began to talk to them more, trying to strike up conversations when I could, whether it be in the hallway between the passing periods or at lunch when all of us have half an hour to do what we wish.
A week later I thought I would ask this person if they liked me, in any sort of fashion, whether it be friends or maybe more, I was counting on just friends. That day was a Friday, and I was far to scared to ask myself, I am a chicken, shy by nature. I can not simply just go up to the person I like and just tell them how I am feeling, I'm far to shy.
So that Friday night, I was assigned to make Cotton candy at the football game.
During the night, one of my 'friends' so desperately wanted to go out with one of my other 'friends', for the purpose of this story we will call her Jackie and him Collin.
Jackie implored me to go ask Collin if he liked her, in any sort of way, she was leaning more towards a romantic relationship. So I asked, and as fate would have it...he did like her, they began to date.
The night still wore on and my other friends Justin and Katrina...showed up...they are dating as well, so to simply say...I was surrounded by people who were dating, and I hate that.
Anyway...as my shift got closer, I made my way over to the stand and took my place, having one of my friends, Jackie, go ask Dominick (His name I shall not release)if he liked me.

It would take her a few moments to return, and I was hopeful...but... as fate would have it...he did not.In fact he put it in the harshest of ways saying no at least seven times, making my self confidence hit rock bottom.
This last week was homecoming, and I tried so hard to forget him, would not even look at him, speak to him...I simply avoided him, but last night confused me...

Last night was the homecoming dance, and I went, only to find out that my crush...the boy whom took over my thoughts more often than not...there.
I wanted to leave but...I didn't and god I am glad that I didn't, what happened next confused me. I was dancing with a few of my friends and he comes up behind me and begins to dance with me...I am utterly confused.
If he does not like me than why did he simply begin to dance with, it confused me...but things took a turn for the worst.
He began to dance with other girls...making me feel forgotten, I rushed to the bathroom to hide my tears of jealously.
A few moments later, I returned and began to dance again, I found my 'groove' again and was having a blast.
But again, fate hates me so she turned the music to that or a slow song...yippee.
I sighed and turned away, leaving and resting against on of the walls. As I sat that I began to wonder where Dominick was when all of a sudden a hand was outstretch to me. It was him, I took his hand he led me to the dance floor. We got close, my heart was racing.

As we danced, we did not look at one another...but I would catch him taking a peek at me not and again...and I would peek at him. The moment the song ended I expected him to let me go (since my friends told him to go dance with me) and go run off with his friends again, but something strange happened. He didn't stop dancing, we kept going.
"You know the song ended," I said a little baffled with what was going on, and his reply makes me even more confused, "I know."
If he doesn't like me than why is he still holding onto my hips, dancing with me?
We fall silent and then, as if our minds were on the same track, we pulled away, and he pats my arms softly saying, "It's alright." I still don't quite understand what in the world he meant by that...but the night wore on with nothing more interesting happening.

I am confused as to his feelings...if he does not like me than why is he so close to me when we dance, why did he not pull away and simply say 'I know' when the song ended and we did not stop, and then pat my arm and say...it's alright.
I am confused, if any of you have stayed long enough to read all of this, then place tell what what could possibly be going through his head.
I do not quite understand the reaches of a man's mind...but maybe some of my male friends on here will understand and answer me with male logic...I dunno, and I don't mean that in any sort of sexist way.

If any of you can offer me any help, then please don't be afraid to comment to this journal.

Eternally yours
Dark~